Anxiety Body dysmorphia Bulimia Eating disorder Self destruction

The First Try

I have just returned from enjoying a vast lunch at my boarding school cafeteria. As I dawdle into the fluorescent lit bathroom of my dorm, I see my roommate standing before the large rectangular mirror. I stop to watch as she tends to herself over one of the four, white, ceramic sinks. Her dark, silky, shoulder-length hair is pulled back into a messy ponytail.  I scan her figure swiftly which sports a black, full-body, leotard. She’s tall and…

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Growing up Melancolía Self Self destruction Self esteem

The Abortion of Myself

My legs have become long bending wires Awaiting the internal volcanic eruption Blood runs out, producing drowning piles I have no control of any inner-emotion As painful tears flow from my swollen eyes I evoke something unfamiliar purging from my flesh Laboring itself through agonizing cries I clear my vision to perceive that it’s fresh The smell that launders a newborn creature Is unveiled into this world of uncertain and twisted trails My body is left in a cold sweaty…

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